Saturday, July 14, 2018

Homer, Paul Ramsay and Me: Rewriting the Mythology of Western Civilisation

I wrote this long essay over the summer holidays. The issue of the Ramsay Centre has since received lots of media attention. The membership of the board has changed - Beazley has left and Elizabeth Stone has joined. I've shown the essay to various people already - Emily Wilson liked it. I'm parking the essay here. After seeing Hannah Gadsby's Nanette, I think it is important that we review the narratives we tell ourselves about who we are - both personally and culturally. I'm happy to discuss. 

Homer, Paul Ramsay and Me: Rewriting the Mythology of Western Civilisation

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Scepticism is as much the result of knowledge, as knowledge is of scepticism. To be content with what we at present know, is, for the most part, to shut our ears against conviction; since, from the very gradual character of our education, we must continually forget, and emancipate ourselves from, knowledge previously acquired; we must set aside old notions and embrace fresh ones; and, as we learn, we must be daily unlearning something which it has cost us no small labour and anxiety to acquire.

- Theodore Alois Buckley’s introduction to Alexander Pope’s translation of Homer’s The Iliad

It is a truth universally acknowledged that scholarly appreciation of Western Literature requires a familiarity with the works of the Judeo-Christian tradition and classical mythology. I understood this to be valid, so when I attended university as a mature age student in the 1990s I did a major in Myth and Ancient Literature in translation along with an English major. Having been raised as a Catholic I thought I had the Judeo-Christian part covered.

It turned out not to be so simple.

I wrote my master’s thesis on a feminist rewriting of Greek mythology. I was already a feminist and interested in how a rewriting showed other aspects of these stories. What I found was that inserting an agenda didn’t necessarily make for satisfying storytelling.

In 2017 my daughter studied The Odyssey and rewritings of The Odyssey in her Preliminary Extension English class. I re-engaged with my academic interest to deliver some presentations to her class and found there is a lot happening in this field that is unsettling and problematic.

2017 was a big year for classics. Five novels rewriting Greek myth were published, based on the stories of Oedipus, The Oresteia, The Odyssey, Antigone, and The Argonautica. The first translation of The Odyssey into English by a woman was published, as was Stephen Fry’s retellings of Greek myths. Writers are working on retellings of The Iliad, and other works.

The works of the ancient classical Greco-Roman world have long been regarded as the basis for Western Civilisation, Western Literature and Art. Using ancient texts as the basis for Western Civilisation has embedded power structures which privilege some and oppress others. Goethe speculated that the course of human history would have been better if our ancient text had been the works of Homer rather than the Bible. I doubt it, since the power structures that have evolved from each are the same. According to the received idea of Western Civilisation, we have both. Early Christianity saw St Jerome and St Augustine struggle with reconciling their faith with their love of classics, but, somehow, this reconciliation became the norm. We tried operating under the power of the church without the influence of classics and ended up in the Dark Ages. The Renaissance, with its appreciation of the classics, brought us back to curiosity, creativity, innovation and development. We know that in moving from the works of Homer to the Bible we shifted from polytheism to monotheism, from fluid texts to a sacred text, and from moral relativism to moral absolutism.

I sacked
the town and killed the men. We took their wives
and shared their riches equally among us.

Homer, The Odyssey IX. 41–43 (tr Emily Wilson) 

We used to study history as a grand narrative leading to a celebration of Western Civilisation. We now study history in a more global way, acknowledging that geographical divisions are not so clear, that hierarchies of power were applied, that interconnections are important, and that, with limited evidence, our idea of any historical period is simplified and constructed. We now look at social history. We consider the validity of evidence. There really was no Golden Age that was good for everyone.

Historian Yuval Noah Harari writes in Sapiens: A Brief History of Humankind ‘Most sociopolitical hierarchies lack a logical or biological basis — they are nothing but the perpetuation of chance events supported by myths.’ Although there is some archaeological evidence to support the idea that myths are based upon historical events (the fall of Troy, the golden fleece, warrior women), these stories are not to be read as historical, but as stories to help us make sense of our lives, of our relationship with the gods, and to explain the unexplainable. In the absence of knowledge about physics, germs, the planets, or any theories of psychology, storytelling helped us feel there was some explanation for natural forces and human behaviour. The gods may be capricious and their will unknowable, but at least people could try to have some influence on what happened to them. The Greek gods were said to have started with Hesiod and Homer. Hesiod was a farmer who claimed Dionysus told him to write. Homer was a blind oral poet, whose works were written down. Attributed to him are hymns to pagan gods, The Iliad, The Odyssey, and a comedy which did not survive. Homer’s works glorify the heroes of war and their immortality in storytelling and song. Oral stories were also shared amongst neighbouring populations — Mesopotamians, Babylonians, Etruscans, Phoenicians. There are no autograph copies of any classical work; every surviving text has been copied, translated and constructed. These stories were always fluid and there was never one sacred version. Even in antiquity, Greek mythology was explained and rationalised by the author known as Palaephatus in the fourth century BCE. In On Incredible Tales he explains how some stories were based on misinterpreted events, or based on metaphors which were then literalised. For example, Pandora was not made of clay but was a woman who used clay as make-up. Centaurs were the first men to ride horses, not half-man and half-horse. The mythical stories were rewritten in ancient times. Some only survived due to Islamic cultures keeping them alive.

Perhaps only ten percent of ancient classical literature has survived; it is impossible to know. Works written on to papyrus rather than parchment disintegrated. The rest was repurposed, destroyed by fire when the Library of Alexandria was burnt, or not copied (mostly comedies, autobiography, erotica and writing by women, slaves or minorities) or deliberately destroyed due to judgement about the content (the works of Sappho).

Who owns these stories? The surviving works were claimed by white men for their own purposes. Joan Didion writes in The White Album, ‘A place belongs forever to whoever claims it hardest, remembers it most obsessively, wrenches it from itself, shapes it, renders it, loves it so radically that he remakes it in his own image.’ So with classical literature. White men claimed that these stories are universal and speak to what it is to be human. If that were true, there would be stories about childbirth (rather than Zeus, a serial rapist, incubating children in his thigh and his head, and Leda laying eggs), about menopause (I’m still looking), and they would all pass the Bechdel test: that two named female characters talk about something other than a man (they don’t). We have been taught that male is the norm and the default. It is not.

Yes, the ancient Greeks informed our thinking about philosophy, literature, mathematics, natural sciences, theatre, art and government. We refer to 5th century BCE Greece as the Golden Age. Literary devices, scenes and tropes can be traced from ancient classical texts through the Bible and beyond, but let’s be clear-eyed about who ancient Greeks and Romans were. Theirs were slave-based societies. Women had no power. The first book of The Odyssey includes Telemachus telling his mother, Penelope, to return upstairs to her private quarter because speaking is the business of men. The Iliad opens with the anger of Achilles because Agamemnon had taken his slave girl. In ancient Rome the best regarded woman was one who never spoke in the company of men. Men having sex with pubescent boys was unremarkable. Perhaps ten percent of the population was literate.

My name is Noman. 

Homer, The Odyssey IX. 366 (tr. Emily Wilson) 

Once these stories were claimed as their own by white men, white men from various backgrounds, multi-white men (even though the writers were olive-skinned), they become encoded in power systems. Under patriarchy and colonisation the people without power knew that being on board with ancient literature was a code to accessing power on multi-white male terms. To be educated required those outside of the power group (not male, not rich, not white, not straight) to obtain this education, a classical education, in order to access power — to share cultural references and deserve a seat at the table. This is how the world came to operate. Women who knew ancient Greek and Latin sought to be recognised as serious scholars. The colonised who adopted these stories as their own must be on the side of the powerful. The colonised took on the culture of the colonisers and were expected to be grateful, or to be exterminated. We could examine this dynamic in terms of our current idea of cultural appropriation and why taking on the culture of the powerful is expected, yet taking on the culture of the oppressed was regarded as ‘going native’ but now is seen as disrespectful. What do we mean by cultural exchange between unequal powers?

Importantly, these stories are described as seminal texts rather than ovarian texts.

We learn that multi-white male writing is good writing. That multi-white male leadership is good leadership. In retrospect we can call this social engineering. It becomes embedded in our culture. Ancient cultures from all over the world have been excluded from this story because they were unknown to multi-white men. We could have as the basis for our culture many other influences: Pacific Islander dancing; Aboriginal dreamtime; the works of Confucius; Arabic music; Japanese theatre; a matriarchal tribe; depending on the accidents of history and the weapons of aggressors. We will never know the consequences of the paths not travelled and the potential influence of artefacts lost. Instead we have been taught that multi-white male subjectivity is objectivity. It isn’t. While leaving out the contentious idea of what is ‘Western Civilisation’, to claim these texts as the basis for our values today is insulting to everyone not represented, who has values based on anything that is not recognised by multi-white men. We may well ask who owns values.
But now, the winds have seized him,
and he is nameless and unknown. 

Homer, The Odyssey, I. 241–2 (tr Emily Wilson) 

Women have been translating and rewriting these stories to insert what has been silenced, challenging the embedded power structures. Each retelling or rewriting or new story, of both the stories themselves and the idea of Western Civilisation, either challenges or champions the traditional power structures. It is notable that the first translation of The Odyssey by a women into English has been published only in November 2017. The gendered slurs are absent. The maids are not maids but slaves. It matters.

Thinking about how the classics have been used in power systems is called Critical Classical Reception Studies. In the UK this work has been led by Professor Edith Hall who has written about class, gender and ethnicity in ancient sources. Currently, the online journal, Eidolon, edited by Dr Donna Zuckerberg in the USA, seeks to champion the study of classics, but reads them for social justice and equality in a feminist, inclusive and progressive way. While classics, specifically Tacitus’ description of Germanic people as noble savages admired for their pure blood, are being claimed as a source of entitlement for white supremacists, as they were for the Nazis, a counter argument must be made. We know that histories written in ancient Greece and Rome were based on limited information, containing imaginative writing to fill in the gaps, and were written in specific contexts for particular purposes and audiences.

The most visible faces of classics at the moment are women’s. Yet, these women are being disparaged. In the review of three novels rewriting Greek myth published in the Sydney Morning Herald in April 2017 a male reviewer described Natalie Haynes’ Afterword in her novel as ‘chatty’. He derides her novel as flat-toned, as is the fashion, he says, for young writers, and the dialogue too commonplace. His review favoured the two male writers. One he describes as brilliant, giving substance, probability and psychological reality to these creatures of myth. The other male’s novel is described as an impressive tour-de-force. The reviewer praises the sparse use of dialogue, and lack of finite verbs. When he says the novel becomes more conventional, he accepts this without criticism. The reviewer is blind to one of the male writers having thanked Haynes for helping him. Haynes is a classicist and broadcaster who champions the study of classics.

Another classicist, Professor Mary Beard, also received media attention in 2017. She published a short book of two lectures, entitled Women and Power. Worryingly, an endorsement on the book jacket from the Financial Times reads: ‘An irrepressible enthusiast with a refreshing disregard for convention.’ Mary Beard is a Professor of Classics at the University of Cambridge. In terms of scholarship, one can’t go any higher. She is not an ‘enthusiast’. I also wonder what is meant by her disregard for convention. That she doesn’t dye her hair? That she is an older women with a public presence? Or that she argues for women’s rights?

Penelope is still being told to go to her room.

These power systems from ancient texts and the received idea of Western Civilisation aren’t working out well for lots of people. Universities in the UK, USA and South Africa are grappling with accusations of teaching white supremacy and denying history. The Rhodes Must Fall campaign challenges the legacy of exploitation of ‘the colonies’. Right wing nationalism is rising in Europe and the USA. Southern states of the USA are dealing with confederate memorials. And, across the world, we can still measure various forms of gender inequality.

How prone to doubt, how cautious are the wise! 

- Homer, The Odyssey VIII. 375 (tr Alexander Pope)

Yet the arguments are still being made that our society, in Australia, a multicultural society, founded on Aboriginal land, the home of our country’s indigenous people, has values based upon Western Civilisation. According to John Howard, quoted in the Financial Review: ‘Western civilisation has got to be taught as the contribution of Greek and Roman heritage, the Judeo-Christian ethic, the Enlightenment and the British iteration of parliamentary democracy and civil and common law. And of course the Protestant revolution — because of the role it gave to the individual.’

John Howard is Chair of the Board of Directors for the new Ramsay Centre for Western Civilisation. The Board oversees the three billion dollar endowment by Paul Ramsay, who ran Ramsay Health Care and owned a network of television stations. The endowment is to fund undergraduate and postgraduate scholarships to be delivered by two NSW/ACT universities. The aim is for Australians to ‘learn to value their own civilisational heritage’. Ramsay was Catholic and friends with Tony Abbott, who is on the Board.

The CEO for the Ramsay Centre for Western Civilisation is Professor Simon Haines. He told Catholic Outlook that when teaching poetry in China there was a ‘thirst for knowledge of the West’. ‘In many cases, what they would have studied would be quite a limited curriculum,’ he said, because of Marxism. Catholic Outlook reported:

The Ramsay Scholarships will support the growing interest in the West’s intellectual, spiritual and artistic heritage.

The Ramsay Centre’s educational program will have a broad curriculum in the ‘best which has been thought and said in the world’.

‘We’re hoping for this to be non-ideological; putting the focus on the Great Books.’

He told Campion College graduates that after studying the liberal arts, the thread from ‘romantic poetry to merchant banking makes more sense’.

Great books programs typically include Homer, Plato, Aristotle, Virgil, Marcus Aurelius, sacred scripture, St Augustine, Chaucer, Machiavelli, St Thomas More, Shakespeare, Milton, Jane Austen and modern writers.

Note there is no definition of ‘the best’, nor ‘great books’, no acknowledgement that anything worthwhile has been said outside his idea of Western Civilisation and no understanding that his proposed program is already ideologically based and a limited curriculum, as every curriculum must be. There is no acknowledgement that people from the East may be interested in the West due to systems of power. Note all the books are by multi-white men except Austen, who wrote mildly comical novels satirising her society, in which women grapple with love and financial security and somehow it ends happily ever after. Austen who is safe. There is no Virginia Woolf or Toni Morrison or Angela Carter or any other woman who has contributed to our thinking about what it is to be human. And no Sappho.

The link to merchant banking is telling.

Haines was interviewed by Geraldine Doogue on ABC radio. She asked what would happen if the course turned out to be more about critiquing than celebrating Western Civilisation. He said the funding would be withdrawn. She asked about the impact of imperialism and colonisation, which didn’t work out well for many people. He said the corrective in thinking about this had swung too far with an equal rights agenda and identity politics — we need to focus on the big picture. When Doogue asked if the course will be taught through the male gaze, he groaned.

In the December Quadrant Haines acknowledged the criticism of the proposed course, saying his detractors either argue that Western Civilisation doesn’t exist or that it shouldn’t. He argues that the institutions of Western Civilisation have permitted this freedom of speech. He writes ‘why should a few current, crude political obsessions deny school leavers, or indeed older students, access to this vast centuries-long conversation about the meaning of life—of their own lives?’ Nevermind about the systemic oppression of women, colonised peoples and anyone else who isn’t male and white. If freedom of speech has eventually permitted the vote for women and freedom from slavery how long does he expect us to be grateful?

In May 2017 the Sydney Morning Herald published Tony Abbott’s piece entitled The West's high culture is the best antidote to discrimination. He writes about his disappointment in people criticising Australia and its values, particularly Yassmin Abdel-Magied’s tweet on Anzac day —“Lest we forget (Manus, Nauru, Syria, Palestine)” — and claims there is a ‘cultural cowardice at the heart of our institutions’. His recommendation is pride in our Western civilisation. He laments trigger warnings and political correctness. In talking about Australians he says ‘Believers or not, they know that Gospel values are the best way to live. They appreciate that freedom of speech might not create a single job; because it's done so much more than that. It's created a civilisation: the only one yet in human history that's provided every citizen with the necessities of life.’ Then he glorifies the little people who struggle in substandard conditions providing goods and services. He defends the church: ‘we respect the Christian church even though its adherents are all-too-human, because it turns our minds and hearts and souls to the higher things’. Never mind about the Royal Commission into Institutional Responses to Child Sexual Abuse. Never mind about all the Australians whose material needs are not being met. Abbott was a Rhodes scholar, yet it is difficult to imagine him spending his evenings at the opera or reading Virgil in Latin.

Also on the board are Joe de Bruyn, a socially conservative Catholic trade union official and member of the ALP executive; Peter Evans, a member of Sydney Anglicans and an accountant; Julian Leeser, a Catholic lawyer; Kim Beazley; Michael Siddle and Tony Clark. According to The Guardian, Howard and Beazley are united in calling identity politics a ‘cancer’, and in their concern for the fading confidence in democracy. Never mind that there may be other reasons for that fading confidence.

For a centre for education, there is a paucity of educators and an abundance of conservative Christians.

I’ve been following the arguments made by John Howard, Tony Abbott, Kevin Donnelly, Christopher Pyne and Barry Spurr regarding education for some years. My summary is that they are afraid of postmodernism, critical theory, multimodal texts, identity politics, multiculturalism, feminism and cultural relativism. In 2010 John Howard described senior school English courses as embracing ‘gobbledygook’. Clearly, he dismisses ideas he doesn’t understand.

The proposal that the all male board will be boosted by female appointments as an afterthought provides no comfort.

The defenders of the values of Western Civilisation remind me of Achilles having a tantrum over Agamemnon taking his slave girl.

How could studying these ancient texts, translated and constructed, advise us on addressing today’s global problems? Problems like political instability, war, sex slavery, child marriage, poverty, climate change, food and water security, obesity, cancer, diabetes, depression, anxiety, unemployment, corruption? Do not look to them for role models on how to ‘be a man’ or how to conduct respectful relationships with women.

With such an emphasis on the written word I find it ironic that two famous figures from ancient texts, Socrates and Jesus, wrote nothing themselves. Jesus only wrote with a stick in the sand, and we don’t know what he wrote. His stories, according to the writers of the gospels many years later, were parables, full of metaphors. Socrates, as represented by Plato, said that writing is ‘inhuman, pretending to establish outside the mind what in reality can be only in the mind’. It seems they were comfortable with oral storytelling and discussion.

Sometimes remembering is a burden and a trap.

So, whilst I champion any investment in the liberal arts and humanities, the idea of a Ramsey Centre for Western Civilisation fills me with dread. Either the men who champion this program do not understand what they doing, or they do. Both possibilities are frightening.

The idea of Western Civilisation is itself contested. Kwame Anthony Appiah, Professor of Philosophy and Law at New York University, writes convincingly about this in his essay There is no such thing as western civilisation. He tracks the evolution of the idea. Culturally, we have little in common with our forebears. Globalisation cannot be undone. We choose our values rather than inherit them. His arguments should be seriously considered.

The argument that these works provide the values upon which Western Civilisation is based, and that these values are worth protecting, and provide a basis for policy decision making in 2018 should also be contested. With none of these terms defined by the proponents of this argument, I read this as code to include some and exclude others on the basis of gender, race, sexuality and faith. They are fond, too, of using the term Judeo-Christian, as if all Christianities are the same, and Christianity has subsumed Judaism. The term Judeo-Christian does a disservice to both Jews and Christians. (The term Greco-Roman would have been objectionable to ancient Greeks and Romans too.) It is used as code to include Christians and exclude others. Its use is an example of how we tell stories to ourselves within structures of inclusion and exclusion. I’m curious to know how Judeo-Christian values will be taught whilst covering the history of the systematic exclusions of the Jewish people and the Holocaust.

Studying Western Civilisation at universities may result in the opposite outcome Haines, Howard and Abbott might expect. Applying critical thinking, that is, asking questions, looking for evidence to support claims, acknowledging absences, and reviewing what we think we know, could result in debunking the received idea of Western Civilisation, and challenging all the power structures the idea supports. Otherwise, we apply lazy thinking, using uncontested claims to support an ideology that maintains traditional, unfair, power structures. If the Ramsey Centre for Western Civilisation assumes the scholarships will provide a basis for Australians to respect their received ideas as the values of our civilisational heritage, they may need to think again. Frankly, I don’t see how any university that delivers this program could do so whilst being consistent with its declared values. I don’t see how any university could deliver this program whilst being consistent with its declared graduate attributes. I don’t see how any university could deliver this program without risking its reputation.

It is annoying,

Repeating tales that have been told before.

- Homer, The Odyssey XII 453–4 (tr Emily Wilson) 

So, what do we do with classics? Why do people rewrite these stories, and what purpose does a rewriting serve?

In rewriting the myths a writer aims to either protect or challenge the embedded systems of power which influence us today. Some successful rewritings set the stories in other times and places. The less successful write from the point of view of a character in the ancient context using a sanctimonious tone. Setting a story in an ancient context convincingly is a difficult undertaking. Arguably, the most successful retellings are stage productions of the plays, which can show various sides of a story without being heavy handed and can translate the stories to any time and place. Perhaps a rewriting might start with all the goddesses putting Zeus on trial for being a serial rapist, and making him stop, so that no human could ever think that his behaviour is acceptable. Such a scene does not exist in ancient literature. It is possible that had such a scene existed, the course of human history would have been different.

Perhaps these stories were never ours to begin with.

What if the stories women told in kitchens and whilst laundering and taking care of children became the basis of our serious literature? What of the stories told by slaves amongst themselves? What if ancient people believed their internal thoughts were messages from gods? What if, after the Trojan War, the women swore ‘Never Again’? What if Hypsipyle always intended for Jason and his fellow travellers to impregnate the women and leave? What if the priestesses of Delphi were happy to live lives free from the attentions of men? What if Ovid was exiled for the offence of encouraging women to wear make-up to attract a man? What if evidence of all these scenes was buried in the Egyptian desert? What if the Library of Alexandria had survived? What if we give equal value to other types of meaning-making like art, dance, music? We could well ask who owns gestures, or sounds or colours or shapes or rhythms. What if we celebrate the similarities and differences in stories all over the world?

As Marguerite Johnson, Professor of Classics at the University of Newcastle, says about fairy tales, myths are good to think with.

We can keep the classics, and be curious about the understandings of ancient peoples. Their memory devices became our literary devices which are still serving us well. The principles of rhetoric are ones we could usefully resurrect. But do not look to these texts for advice on what to eat (Homer: meat and wine, meat and wine) or how to treat women, or slaves, or the colonised, or gay marriage. These texts were never set in stone. The stories are flexible enough to accommodate multiple readings, and multiple rewritings, and new works, entering into a conversation about power structures.

We need to stop saying that classical literature and the Bible are the basis for the Western Literary Canon. They used to be. They aren’t any more. They shouldn’t be. We need to stop saying that these texts provide the basis for our Australian values. They do not.

We still want to believe that people get what they deserve, if only in the afterlife, that cheats never prosper, despite evidence to the contrary, and that missing children have been so favoured by the gods that they have been taken to Mount Olympus. We need comfort when bad things happen to good people. We still read stories to critique and reflect on ourselves and our societies, and contemplate what it is to be human. We still use stories as meaning-making devices. We are still interested in portents and prophesy and whether the gods or nature care for us. But we need these stories to be available to all and to offer something that contributes to what it is to be human, not just to embed racial or gendered thinking. We want to emphasise similarities rather than differences and to include rather than divide. We need to be open. Loose-limbed. We need to listen.

In 2017 I have had much cause to think of the Dunning-Kruger effect, the psychological theory that bears out Confucius’s ‘Real knowledge is to know the extent of one's ignorance’ and Socrates’ claim, according to Plato, that he is wise in that he knows nothing. I wish I could have talked to Paul Ramsay to explain why The Ramsay Centre for Western Civilisation is a bad idea and that his three billion dollars could be better spent. That waste of money and lost opportunity makes me very sad. There is nothing bittersweet about it. I would explain that cultural stories work like personal stories. When we tell a story for the first time we collate the information, emphasising some details and omitting others, and construct it for a certain meaning. The next time we tell it is more automatic. Every time we tell the story it is further embedded. We rarely revise or retell. The story becomes part of our collection of stories that forms part of our identity. It is how oral stories solidify. But if those stories are not based on the truth and if they hurt people, they need to be revised. And I would have explained to him that, like the stories of Greek mythology, his idea of Western Civilisation needs to be fluid, because any story set in stone can be easily smashed.

Someone will remember us
I say
Even in another time

- Sappho (tr Anne Carson) 

A version of this essay will be presented at the Future Directions in Australasian Classical Receptions Conference at the University of Newcastle 4-5 October 2018. I am writing a guide to high school English and welcome examples of literary devices, from ab ovo to zeugma, by diverse voices, on Twitter @Classic Walshy #ovariantexts

Friday, May 11, 2018

My Body Betrays Me

When my daughter asked me what transgender is, I answered that some people feel that they were born into the wrong body. That their bodies had betrayed them. So they change gender. She replied: I feel like I should have had a twin. 

Of course, there was nothing I could do about that, but it did make me think about all the ways my own body had betrayed me. I am a woman and have always been female. My body has betrayed me in many ways.

My body has betrayed me by bleeding at times when I wasn’t ready. Having a female body has attracted unwanted attention from men while I have gone about my own business. I have put on weight when I hadn’t expected to. My body has betrayed me by being short. At times my face has betrayed me by being not pretty enough. I am not particularly athletic. I have frizzy hair. I had crooked teeth and ears that stick out. I fell pregnant when I hadn’t planned to. I broke my tailbone in childbirth. I now have a sore hip from sitting unevenly for years due to the fractured tailbone. I had mastitis when breastfeeding. I had a psychotic reaction (Hoigne Syndrome) to an injection of procaine penicillin which was administered for said mastitis. I’ve had hot flushes from menopause.

Some may feel being physically uncoordinated whilst dancing is a disappointment. Others may have serious diseases, lost a limb in an accident, suffer through a chronic illness or serious disabilities. Some people may feel like their body betrays them because they have a low tolerance to alcohol, or they have allergies. Women who have trouble conceiving, carrying to term or with childbirth, or breastfeeding, feel let down by their bodies. Others are disappointed by their skin colour, hair colour, eye shape or ingrown toenails. We all feel disappointed by our bodies when our plans are disrupted by having a cold or breaking a bone.

At times we are all physically unable to do what we want to do, whether that be to function, to excel, or to have fun. The range is wide.

For me, the biggest betrayal was having leukemia. I never gave my body permission to have a blood cancer. It was sneaky and pernicious. Nobody plans to get cancer and plans to devote time to treatment until it is necessary to do so. Any type of cancer is a betrayal of the body.

People who live long enough to live through a process of aging are likely to experience sore knees, declining eyesight and hearing, general aches and pains, and incontinence. They feel their bodies have let them down.

My experience is unremarkable.

I had reason to think about this again on reading Cate McGregor’s article in which she apolgises to people who were hurt by her condemnation of the Safe Schools program. I appreciate that she is open to learning. What concerned me was this:

'My concept of gender was forged by exposure to the showgirls of the 1970s and 1980s who were my heroines. I had a limited, arguably obsolescent view of how gender variance manifests among contemporary teens.'

I believed that people who want to transition from one gender to another undergo counselling. I assumed this counselling included challenging stereotypes of what is it to be one gender or another, or non-binary. It seems incredible to me that a person could think that being a women in the world today is like being a showgirl. I would expect that some serious consideration would be given to how gender exists within a system of power and an understanding that in moving from one position of power to another a person either moves from a position of oppression to one of privilege, or visa versa. Whilst I’m interested in the experience of people who have navigated this transition and what we can learn from their experiences, surely it should be no shock to them that other people will have other views. Living in male, female or non-binary bodies all carry expectations we may not endorse.

I wonder what percentage of people feel that their bodies betray them when they go through puberty. It is confronting when your body changes from one of a child to one of an adult. It can be a frightening transition, especially since it changes forever how you are perceived in the world and there is no turning back to the simplicities of childhood. No one decides if he or she is ready and no one gives permission for how it happens.

Perhaps feeling betrayed by your body is a common human experience. Perhaps it is unrealistic to expect otherwise.

While some people can afford to surgically and medically change their bodies, most people don’t. Meanwhile, other people are betrayed because they don’t have access to what they need to keep their bodies alive: clean water, enough food, safety, or medical treatment. Probably everyone feels like their bodies have betrayed them in one way or another. Nobody feels that their bodies are loyal and supportive to their will in every way. In the end we are all betrayed by our bodies because we can’t live without our bodies. Perhaps we could learn to appreciate them more, in all their many variations, try to keep them healthy, and be grateful for what they can do.

And perhaps we could change our expectations about people based solely on their bodies.

Friday, January 05, 2018

My article in SMH about volunteering

I had an article published in SMH yesterday.

I didn't write the headline - it is a little less nuanced than I would have written.

Following up on my article regarding volunteering, fundraising and charities I’ve created flowlines to help think through these ideas.

The ideas are about how volunteering, fundraising and charities work in interaction with connecting systems.

Q. Is this my personal responsibility?
Eg. Raising money for Legacy, public schools, hospitals, medical research, the homeless, surf lifesaving, Careflight, international aid
Action. No - write to a politician. It is a collective responsibility.
Yes - keep thinking

Q. Is my action causing harm?

Eg. Making waste, unhealthy food, imposing on people, everything sold is ethically made

Action. Yes - do something else

No - keep thinking

Q. Is my action effective when considering all costs?
Eg. People’s time, investment, consequences, the money going to the most needy.
Action. No - find something else
Yes - keep thinking

Q. Will it need to be repeated next year?
Action. Yes - find another solution
No - keep thinking

Q. Should this be a paid job?
Eg. Managing a group of workers, helping with reading at school, Meals on Wheels
Action. Yes - write to a politician
No - keep thinking

Q. Is this fair and does it build a fairer society?
Eg. Fundraising for a wealthy group of school students to go overseas.
Action. Yes - keep thinking
No - find another solution

Q. Am I volunteering to build skills?
Action. Make sure you are not being exploited and your skills are recognised and rewarded by moving into paid work

Q. Am I supporting a church run charity?
Q. Do I support everything about this group?
Action. Yes - keep thinking
No - find another solution

Q. Does this group have enough assets and money that they could solve a problem tomorrow if they sold some assets?
Action. Yes - find another solution
No - keep thinking

Q. Should I help in an emergency?
Action. Yes - just do it

Q. Should I give blood?
Action. Yes - just do it.

Q. How should I be involved in my community?
Eg. Community garden, choir, sport, political group, local events that aren’t fundraisers, parties, being kind, helping people in any way that doesn’t damage a system (may include bush regeneration, WIRES), organise Soup and Submissions evenings (writing to politicians together), mentoring, any club that shares resources
Action. Yes - do it

I am also including a link to The Story of Solutions

and Naomi Klein at the Sydney Peace Prize

From 25 mins to 104 mins.

And Naomi Klein - This Changes Everything

Monday, January 01, 2018

2017 wrap up

It has been the year of overworking. I won’t talk about my paid job except to say that people make the difference, and that it is over. I’m looking for something else. Outside of my regular job I have done an enormous amount of work this year - reading, thinking, writing and making resources. I feel like I have learnt as much this year as I did studying full time.

This has been the year I have re-engaged with classics (Ancient Greek and Roman Literature). 2017 has been a big year for classics and I want to be part of what happens next.

2017 has been a year of funerals. I have lost two friends, one to blood cancer (we had the same specialist) and one to violence. I have lost my mother’s only surviving sister.

I have been fairly well. I still have check ups and need to look after myself.

It has been the year of yoga. There will be more. And swimming.

I didn’t put on weight this year - something I now need to monitor.

It has been a year of dancing (going out grooving with middle aged women - so freeing to be invisible!), musicals, theatre.

Our campaign to get scripture out of public schools has had a good year. We are nearly at a point where it can roll on by itself, because the main stakeholders with power are now on board, and partly because church leaders have had enough of a platform to destroy their own brand.

I took the family to Cairns and we swam with the fishes at the Great Barrier Reef. I went to Melbourne to a feminist conference, and went to Canberra. I can recommend the All the better to see you with: Fairy tales Transformed exhibition at the Ian Potter Centre in Melbourne, until 4 March 2018, and the Songlines: Tracking the Seven Sisters exhibition at the National Museum in Canberra until 25 Feb 2018.

Anyhoo - back to work. I'm writing longer pieces and hope to publish some things in the new year.

Monday, May 22, 2017

No Name Calling

In 2016 I started working at a university. At this university (as at others) there are active student groups, including Socialist groups. I consider myself a socialist so one day at lunchtime I walked over to their stall. They were asking people to sign a petition against Pauline Hanson. I had noticed that since the federal election they had distributed posters against her all over the campus.

I read the petition statement but didn’t sign it - it wasn’t well written and included some assumptions I wasn’t on board with - and then I asked some questions. When I said I wasn’t going to sign the petition afterall they responded with aggression. I was told that petitions didn’t work anyway. ‘OK’, I said ‘what do you think will work?’ I then entered a strange conversation. I was told that the way to defeat Pauline Hanson and her followers was to shout at them that they are racist. I was told that this strategy had worked last time. I suggested that it was just bullying, and perhaps it would be better to build relationships with people and educate them and bring them along, so that they learn to not be afraid of people they don’t understand. The students told me that my suggestion wouldn’t work because: educated people are racists, in fact Malcolm Turnbull was the biggest racist because he held the highest position in the country; that if Pauline Hanson learnt not to be a racist there would be other people to take her place and it wasn’t about her - even though the posters and petition were all about her; that education doesn’t work and we need to just keep shouting at people that they are racist. I didn’t follow their logic about Malcolm Turnbull and Pauline Hanson, so I asked why they thought education doesn’t work. What did they think education was for if it didn’t lead to making a better society? Why were they at university? That’s where the conversation ended.

I’ve thought of this conversation after Brexit and after the election of Donald Trump. I’ve thought about it in relation to a rule in ethics classes. In ethics classes there is a rule that you don’t call people names. I extended this in the classes I taught to include people outside the room: politicians, celebrities, sportspeople, and I would ask what happens when you call people names. The students would say you hurt people’s feelings. I would agree, and extend the answer to include this: you cut off an opportunity to understand other people. Instead of calling people names, we need to listen and engage. Respectfully. People we disagree with genuinely believe they are right and are good. Shouting in their faces does nothing to change that - usually it makes people dig in, giving them more reason to not listen to you. Calling people names misses an opportunity to increase understanding and to make progress. Lets not do that.

Sunday, May 14, 2017

Crow, plough and wheel

I haven’t posted anything personal for a while. Today is Mothers’ Day. I’m still holding out on celebrating until we have equal rights.

I am probably more busy and more productive than I have ever been, so, I guess that transplant is holding. The upside is that my intellectual life is fab. I’m having a lovely time exploring my academic interests, and doing lots of writing.

The downside is that my body is not happy. My hips hurt. I sit down too much. It is hard to attribute what causes which physical problem: ageing, the transplant, my medication, lack of physical activity.

I have been watching Grace and Frankie. That these two wonderful women can be so physically strong and flexible in their 70s is something to aspire to. So I need to keep moving.

I do yoga twice a week, and I’m now having trouble getting into crow, plough, and wheel. I used to be able to just launch myself into positions, but now I don’t have the oomph. I need to work on the oomph. Otherwise, I’m doing fine with identifying as crow, plough and wheel, as I repeat my messages, dig into ideas, and work daily at looking at what is basic to our humanity and how it relates to our present and future.

Thursday, April 20, 2017

13 Reasons Why - a Parent’s Perspective

Everybody has been talking about 13 Reasons Why. Here’s my take on it.

As a story it is hard to suspend disbelief because:
  • The make-up is distractingly bad
  • Senoirs do not hang out with juniors in real life
  • Clay does not listen to all tapes asap
  • The gay Fonzi character is more like a guardian angel than a person
  • There are just too many secrets
  • There is no need for Jeff to die
  • It makes no sense that Hannah needs to work in her parent’s shop when they have no customers.
  • Two boys are brutally bashed and walk away - they are not even taken to hospital, and their parents accept this (perhaps due to the unconvincing make-up)

Yes, it is irresponsible, but the teens I’ve talked to (or overhead at my 17 year old’s birthday party) think that the show is a failure because it is unbelievable.    

There are lots of ways you can look at the show - through the lens of class or gender and how schools are a melting pot that are supposed to teach children how to socialise. Are we teaching children that society is brutal, and that the biggest bullies win? Sometimes I think these USA high school shows teach toxic masculinity and toxic femininity. As well as teaching people how to commit a revenge suicide, leaving the bath running - which is the standard tv bath death - more dramatic (I don't know if it is true to life, because journalists have a code of conduct which means they don't report methods of suicide - unlike producers of tv shows).

And it is concerning that Hannah repeatedly stands up for herself - she tells people to go away when she is uncomfortable, for example, and confronts people - and for that people consider her a bitch or crazy - but the message is that people should not have taken her at her word and should have persisted. So, damned if you do and damned if you don't. And reinforces the message that girls don't know what they want and can't speak for themselves. Even when they do. Which empowers the abusers and guilt trips the people who did take her at her word. Not a good message.

So, what are parents to do?
  • Don’t send you kids to school early - size matters
  • Talk to other parents
  • Have your kids in shared bedrooms - siblings are insurance for knowing what is going on. (None of the teen shows - Pretty Little Liars, Gossip Girl, 13 Reasons Why - would have plots if the main characters shared a bedroom with younger siblings.)
  • Ethics classes for all (includes practising the no name calling policy - and that applies to everyone everywhere).

If you are a parent and want to think about the mental health of teenagers, watch this instead. This is probably what the next series will be about.